Medicine doctor

sometimes someone summons me
needing me
or so they say
so have I summoned you?

not that you truly heal me
medicine doctor
but that the sound of your voice
silences my insanity
and it is not the sleeping magic
that invokes
it is the sound of vaguely
sensuous blue eyes
intently upon me

intriguingly foreignly alone
like me
naturally on the verge of dementia
but your blue voice
sounds of havens
and heavens and ports of arrival

so I run to you
and away from you
like a ship
or so I say
like sometimes
someone or other
says
staring at the ocean

and this is the truth
for even if we are all lying
you still bring me peace
and a strange unsettling feeling
for the ocean can always turn